worse come to worse...
last tuesday i went back malaysia coz my lovely ah gong is suspected to getting stroke but the report showed that he has cancer n the cancer cells are distributing every part le, it is final stage le...they start to eat his bone therefore he feel pain...he dont know he has cancer yet mayb these few days my 1st uncle will let him know, he said that may give ah gong some time to prepare...should tell him mar??i dont think so coz i prefer him be happy to leave the world...now he breath heavily but my mum said that the worst thing is bodyache coz the cancer cells r starting to eat his bone le even pain killer also cannot cure his pain, he may need an injection of morphine and waiting for the last second...i tried to endure my tears, please dont drop...last sunday the worse thing come out le, ah gong's windpipe have the bacteria of cancer cell then he have to stay until this coming friday le...hope everything happen after my exam. ern...i think i have no mood to prepare ba...can i pass the exam??now i m very tired le...mentally n physically are very tired le...i really need a lot of sleeping bill to help me to sleep or else i really dont know how can i survive for this period...today babi asked me then my tears starting to drop n drop...omg...i dont know what happen to my lacrimal, my tears is controllable in malaysia but as coming back to singapore, i am very very down...mayb my sick become worse ba then suddenly need to exposure all my feeling...i m very tired le...feel stressed, no related to my studies, please dont ask again...
i was very very down le but i get another shock again!! my ex-bf, mr ng chye leong, before i nv nv think that how worst the singaporean guys r but now i know already. before breaking, he get a new gf who is considered as third party. at that time, i feel guilty and sorry to him but now, i browse my friendster then i found that that they r together a period of times...see how stupid i m, how come i nv trust my cousin, she also have the similiar experience...now my feeling is very very worst...i still remember what i did for him be4 entrying nyp!!so angry u know, as this period, i really really dont know what should i do...i wanna to say u better to find out the guy n avoid from him...is it bad to him...i dont think so coz he is in my blacklist already n i wont n nv forgive him...he always complained that i have no time to acc him as i tried my best to share my limit hour with him then he give me a "big plane", i know i also have some resposibility but i just very very angry lor...the period we r together, his family dont know he get a gf..ern...m i third party??everytime i ask, everytime he give me same pretense, coz his parents dont allow...fine, i m ok, but please dont do the same to ur current gf, mr ng chye leong
*highlight in red coz wanna him to suai forever...zui du fu ren xin...haha
